===Theater Scene=== Apologist, dirge, involving ``Suspension of Disbelief`` and ``Miracles``, a study in suspension of disbelief could go to writings of miracles as well.

what is it about youth that lends well to fantasy and we can pretty much roll play any roll there is.. is it our custom to throw aside what is good for stern rolls eventualy. when i was a youth, before 10 years of age i was able to be naked around my friends.  more or less saying, here i am, i aint no hero, like me and accept me still.. then,, this credo left to a wiser, ive got to be a hero sexualy to feel virile,, wiser only because id entered my teens and puberty and hormones made me want to shout out success, like a tool.. in this way, i took advantage of someone named ian and by extensions,, another freind named dan. this is a way to make someone .

How is youth so Amazing! ( show all kindso of characters, and roll play being major part in drawings, try to enter the world of child heroes,, deluge saviors must have been part? there were many lands lost, entering with atlantis goes to these types of prayers and archetypes. with a mouth of gibraltar or heracles being part of a sign,, ? it feels like it. what are the ancients saying..? are we looking to the future too much? we are still linear, two lines would reveal two linear methods or ways.. method,,, overdoseoflonglife,, pharmakia?  --- Meth-Od,, Methuselah, 969 years = long life, linear methods, two hard lines have been arranged somewhat estranged, to bridge the ages and lay lines to rest. A Renewal? the matriarchy and patriarchy may be waiting a serious boost of knowledge and then respect,, we just need reach? two chiefs in the home.. ages. all is there. we need look. to put this into the theater well so that the people there feel as though they have been witness to something communaly and feel the possibilty of a different engagement,, to share fear.. yet,, to make this appealing enough before they leave for the night. using names that span all the different threads. this could be accomplished with readings of different approaches to keep ideas fresh, yet, familiar, they often are. trying to remember that in some writings that are quite familiar,, there is a word for a call,,``peculiar`` there are many peculiar or strange calls in our communications.. there are many signs trying to make us feel the agitations possibly, the pretexts or cliches. being daughters and sons of the earth,, are we being called on in base ways to change our workings through the almighty power of suggestion? if we are feeling maternal and paternal pangs of distress, its the ages. maybe? it feels true.. we have to reach.. yet,, the empowerment is through study and thought. yet the yeild could be rennaissance and eventualy 3 day weekends, if not a different working structure entirely.. show both hands being used as a way to allow our less coordinated entire half to live as well we need to want what is weak to live? we dont nurture our less coordinated half at all.. its practicaly prone to dependency? the high life of the strong side? dependency too feel strength, this means others... this could be the way of the past yet its lost to our wanting to be strong and coordinated, its natural.. maybe now, in less hunter gatherer settings, we could seriously gain from using both sides of our bodies. could this lean to so called Abel Bodied?)

Im sorry to Ian for having come into his home as a so called freind, yet been conspiring to support myself feebly feindishly using sexual intimidations once we were 14 or so.. this in his families home who were already struggling in ways due to vice in this world. i couldnt know, sticks and stones tht break bones are stats. as well. maybe more even.. alot more.. alot of the ego play goin on. stats can keep us from being able to appear at all. now, it may be for a reason this.. such as making a team.. yet, in every reason why i felt i couldnt be part of a team, is the reason i wanted to cause fear in ways.. i cant be part of a team for fear of th locker room, yet let me act otherwise manifesto... i want to say sorry in a way that generates, so its taking time.. been dreaming of you for a couple years now. yet going back some time as well.  to not just say sorry. i remember the time when there was too much alcohol and the speed wobble on bethune,, strange dreams of bethune and my mom living there in one. that word is as Maison-FeminineParticle.  sry for having driven you two to compulsions for being a realy tacky menace..  im gonna make a theater scene with all kinds of stuff. i wanna say sorry to laura for being so whipped and not being able to stand with her when i had asked her for help.. i was so whipped by my ex i couldnt even stand with somebody who was trying to help. 

im wondering about making some of this also the life with flashes of light. from 1900 forward. this puts world war 1 at 14 years of age.. starting at 1900 as a life span with, as it says in some writings, flashes of light, intense. we had two world wars.. we couldnt say damn on television.. we have to actualy map the human condition.. it could go mostly be statistics and eventual discussion as we are able to tolerate these concepts, yet, how to help... weve reached depression,, we need get more into so called paranoia.. we all feel chased at times. for taking too much desert when young and fearing a spanking... any ways in which we feel that we are sought for the note on the back saying ``kick me``.. ive felt it alot,, in school.. deservingly... yet this is the set. its how to not feel i was so different that i needed to resort to false insurances to broadcast that i wasnt feaful somehow,, possibly in connection with sport.. i couldnt handle changing in front of people anymore.. before 10 i was ok for sure.. i did change.. then i stopped. this could be part of the anger. sorry ian. you were on teams to.. i was so angry to feel different coming to the age of high school and more thoughts of sex while not having grown anymore in this area. theres billions of us, how many kids right now are feeling dread of the damn locker room.. it was a nightmare for me..  i cant be the only one. to know that i wasnt would have helped.. more knowledge of the human experience in courses..? possibly statitstics to know were not alone. everyone has had different experiences coming in to the school, aughta we take it for granted there will be many questions still? there are suppost to be at that age.. we need to make fresh our ability to communicate with courses earlier..

prakriti - source - water - terah  --- two named cities, abram leaves with sarai. was it his two brothers that have the same name as cities? z appears as half of the hindu swastika.. the end of our alphabet may actualy link with another? the swastika being as if a wheel that generates, yet, not with elements to regenerate or recharge.. its symbols... they flip as the water wheel turns with symbols on the end parts before the ledge.. at the middle is a possible agreement many years ago? sounds and symbols flip? our alphabet would be upside down if we set this is motion? long enough ago to accomplish,, every 1000 years a quarter turn? 

Abbreviations in Weights and Measures do come into play as going to and away from god.. Cubit, Coudee(french),  coodees.. the childhood fear. certainly veering from god, and already at that age a testament..

(bb tomorrow gonna draw the theater and think of suspenseful crafted writing for the narrator, gnight)

 the idea of suspension of disbelief can create a belief in a land that is no where else spoken of. what of the idea of  Atlantis? This idea is brought to us by an Author named Plato.  the name is particular in that it lends to the idea of two plates by the word for one and the symbol for one. or two disks,, similar to the word, Disco. plat-o, could also be significant as, plat=flat, in french. this could reveal plat-disque,flat-disk.

there was the theory that the Earth was Flat. the suspension of disbelief, of a theory, if, involving god, can invoke solid councils. yet, if the god was adehered to as absolute, then, Atlantis is gone in a day and a night. would it also involve somehow lack of protection from their god. could this be the character of the mediator and the deluge god? how could we have been struck so hard with such gods protecting us..? if atlantis was gone in a day and a night, and attached to story by a particular name, is there a commentary? is plato a pen name? what could a study in the forming of a name or pen name reveal to us. was he embodied to tell such a story by lineage.. family maybe? there are supposedly circles in the nature of the construction of atlantis.. the idea of the 

Straits of Gibraltar, becoming,, the Pillars of Heracles.. straits and pillars.. a strait being horizontal and a pillar being vertical, could lend to the idea of a plus sign.  this known contested place, is at the mouth of an ocean and a sea. could the idea of a mouth of a contested place with a two ways contested, that when brought together reveal a plus sign. a mouth plus sign, that of a scientific symbol, could reveal a change in thought, leading to a necesitated change in the thought and function of god. how many times has this happened, if, in at least theory else where, and not in this soul case, this has for sure happened.

which brings us to social science. if we can make obvervations of the land, or forecast by number and calculation, which can reveal something off in the written nature of god, or spoken. a testament of some kind, what can we do to help, with our hopes to change social sciences. 

what is Hope.? in ways, to dispell fear by being weak and desperate at the right time, could lend who knows how much laughter, and of a nature that dispells fear of revealing fear,, or what is less desirable in any way.. and makes it fun again to be weak in every way and not desire to stand off with tough peoples issues..   (want to write this as if from a wimsical sort of intense poet, yet not sure how. not poet yet, well timed and worded.. 

Plato: Atlantis,, Straits of Gibraltar, Pillars of Heracles,, : mouth of the pillars of heracles or the straits of gibraltar.  two linear systems at a mouth. 

( idea===quite suddenly in ancient culture, there is a sign of all symbols being turned 90 degree`s during a time of very intense changein the nature of their symbols. within the span of a 200 year period there was major change to their language and alphabet. what could this reveal.)

Host and Guest,, Just what is the nature of science and what is the nature of god. one is source and one is experiment. within our brief lifetime we are to be able to say which is which.  Is God Source,, Or,, Experiment?? source appears to be waters.. eau.. three vowels. god creates the heavens and the earth. yet water is taken for granted. ?  is water considered subject to god, since it moves with the moon.?

host and guest, reveal the abbreviation for street twice.. st. this would leave us with, ho, gue,,  there is a gui in the nature of myth and legend. a plant that grows at night, and the seed of which, does not grow in the earth... it is also attached to the moon. this sounds alot like erections at night and or wet dreams...

host and guest are a two way street? in french host and guest are the same, hote and hote it could be connected to the use of the words bon et mal,, for good and bad. both bon and mal have the same form of the mouth at the begining of the word.. almost manifest at the front of the mouth with the lips. b and m... is this why,, host and guest are the same?

suspension of disbelief is to bank of the other? or, the lesser in ourselves.. the least is the greatest, lest we knock on wood..

(miracles, heracles  .. for thought, the nature of phonemes is that they are like plugins.. we can make leaps and bounds with thought,, it doesnt have to be the correct answers, yet its still mental engagement.)